{"id":985,"date":"2020-07-13T18:51:22","date_gmt":"2020-07-13T23:51:22","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/loveyoustrong.us\/?p=985"},"modified":"2020-07-13T18:51:22","modified_gmt":"2020-07-13T23:51:22","slug":"iamdawnnoelle-too-scared","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/loveyoustrong.us\/index.php\/2020\/07\/13\/iamdawnnoelle-too-scared\/","title":{"rendered":"TOO SCARED"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<pre class=\"wp-block-verse\">to leave everything behind\nthat i\u2019ve once seen\nand forever seen\nas home\nmy life has always\nseen constants of change\ni\u2019m scared of change\nand everything in between\nwhy do i like this\nwhy do i act like it\nmeans more to me\nthan most things\u00a0\ni\u2019ve ever done\nbut i\u2019m too scared\nto open my wounds\nand cry out loud\nto the tombs of despair\nto my empty womb without possibility\nsometimes i wish it wasn\u2019t there\nso i wouldn\u2019t have to\u00a0\nput up with my insane hormonal patterns\n\n\ni might have a fucking life again\nbut i\u2019m a bit afraid of that too\n\n\nto leave all my troubles behind\nme into the dust\nleave all the old energies\nthat served me before, now they keep me stuck\nthey weren\u2019t that way to begin with\nnow the freedom of life is forbidden to be somewhere better\u00a0\ni just want to be free\nfly unto the spirit of my soul\nlike a dead person can do\u00a0\nin the blink of a living person\u2019s eye\n\n<\/pre>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>to leave everything behind that i\u2019ve once seen and forever seen as home my life has always seen constants of change i\u2019m scared of change&hellip;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":19,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1,6],"tags":[49,31,28,58,132,67,44,142,23,54,106,119,129,78,20,143,153,131,22,152,30,110,137,42,154,151,122,156,3,25,70,136,96,66,85,91,92,37,39,84,41,79,18,43],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/loveyoustrong.us\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/985"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/loveyoustrong.us\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/loveyoustrong.us\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/loveyoustrong.us\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/19"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/loveyoustrong.us\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=985"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/loveyoustrong.us\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/985\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":988,"href":"https:\/\/loveyoustrong.us\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/985\/revisions\/988"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/loveyoustrong.us\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=985"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/loveyoustrong.us\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=985"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/loveyoustrong.us\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=985"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}