Sundays and Why They Are SO Difficult

Sunday has been my favorite day for as long as I can remember. Let me explain.

Growing up, I loved going to Sunday school. As I got older I loved being involved with my youth group. Eventually being involved in the puppet ministry and joining choir. I. Love. Sunday.

Fast forward to being an adult and my love for Sunday only deepened. I sang in the choir. I participated in ministries and even helped to begin one. I became a Eucharistic Minister of Holy Communion and eventually a Sacristan. I love serving. Serving only deepened my love of Sunday.

My church family has become my chosen family. My best friends are my church family…or as I call them, my framily!

When we made the decision to move from Texas to Maine, I knew I would miss my framily and my church. I just didn’t realize how much I would miss them especially on Sunday.

That very first Sunday away, December 8th, we watched Mass online from St Gabriel. It was the 9:30 am Mass, not our typical 5pm Mass on Sunday evening. For that, I am thankful. It was so hard to watch my church from so far away. I was thankful for technology so that I can still see my church from afar. But, it was hard.

That very evening, my bestie sent me a picture of the tiny Jesus I had given to her. He was sitting in my spot, in our pew, right next to her. There was no stopping the tears. I missed my Sunday routine. I missed sitting in my second row pew, next to the people I love. I missed serving my friends. I missed the music. I missed the familiarity. I missed going to dinner with our framily after Mass. I missed it all.

It has taken months to settle into a new routine-ish. But it’s still difficult to not be in my church, sitting in my pew, serving with my people. I look forward to the day I have people here in Maine. Even then, Sundays will still be difficult for me.

If you know me, you know I love routine. I love a natural rhythm of the familiar. I’m sure I’ll find a new routine and rhythm, but it will never be the same. My people at St Gabriel, will always and forever hold a special place in my heart!

Sunday. It is still my favorite day…but it is so difficult right now! It will get better. Eventually.

Peace and blessings to you and yours!

lp

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