The Gift…esruC ehT
Be careful what you wish for sometimes the gift is also the curse.
The gift…
hidden memories, removed from my present mind – holy spirit guard my soul.
hidden memories, repressed to save me from myself – holy spirit save my soul.
hidden memories, save me from an unimaginable past – holy spirit save my soul.
hidden memories, block the trauma, tragedy, heart ache and pain – holy spirit save my soul.
holy spirit, save my soul – where is my lost time, memories I cannot recall.
holy spirit, save my soul – who are these people, missing family I do not know, memories I cannot recall.
holy spirit, save my soul – where are my missing moments, beautiful and rare, memories I cannot recall.
holy spirit, guard my soul – where are the missing parts of myself, memories I cannot recall.
…esruc ehT
This is for all the trauma survivors…May your mind allow in the good and keep the haunting at bay. May you make new memories, live and love fully. May your sweet soul be safely guarded while allowing joyful times to remain. May you grapple and rise above the noise, the shadows of your minds. I’m with you there…just breathe!
Tip for the blurry memories you wish were more clear…take pictures, take as many as you want and need…I have found this helps!
There are trauma survivors who are near and dear to me. Thank you for so eloquently putting the struggle into words. You remind me of the demons they fight on a daily basis, and you give me comforting words to share with them. Thank you for being vulnerable enough to write and share this. Sending you a big hug!
Thanks Cindye…it really is a struggle when you can’t remember a huge chunk of your childhood…but I also know it is a saving grace because of the atrocities at the hands of adults who where supposed to protect and love us. I have glimmers and glances but have come to be thankful for those gaps as well as those glimmers and glances. May our words be a healing balm for those who struggle!! LYS