TOO SCARED

to leave everything behind
that i’ve once seen
and forever seen
as home
my life has always
seen constants of change
i’m scared of change
and everything in between
why do i like this
why do i act like it
means more to me
than most things 
i’ve ever done
but i’m too scared
to open my wounds
and cry out loud
to the tombs of despair
to my empty womb without possibility
sometimes i wish it wasn’t there
so i wouldn’t have to 
put up with my insane hormonal patterns


i might have a fucking life again
but i’m a bit afraid of that too


to leave all my troubles behind
me into the dust
leave all the old energies
that served me before, now they keep me stuck
they weren’t that way to begin with
now the freedom of life is forbidden to be somewhere better 
i just want to be free
fly unto the spirit of my soul
like a dead person can do 
in the blink of a living person’s eye

3 Replies to “TOO SCARED”

  1. I love your poetry. I love how you share the depths of your soul. Keep doing that. You need it. We need it. I love you strong, Dawn. You are an amazing woman.

  2. Wow!

    i just want to be free
    fly unto the spirit of my soul
    like a dead person can do
    in the blink of a living person’s eye

    Wow!!

  3. “leave all the old energies
    that served me before, now they keep me stuck
    they weren’t that way to begin with
    now the freedom of life is forbidden to be somewhere better”
    This is wondrous, so FULL, so emotive.
    You have such a unique way of telling your story, it is so powerful, but the rhythm is exactly what it should be…it ebbs, flows, twists, and turns…it FEELS like life!
    Thank you so much for sharing!

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